It's Time Ladies!

It's way overdue! I think we need a TalesAdventure!

I say we start planning for BurningMan 2011! Who's down?

I'm going to start researching and I'll coordinate... just need ya'll to participate..

Ladies... let's do something together!

Not Da Mama

Had too much time on our hands...

Shoebox Poems #7

Dedicated 2U

Could you ever touch me?
Could you ever feel me?
Could you ever kiss me?
Could you ever hold me?

Care again! Love again!

Please come back to us,
You are all of the above!

Shoebox Poems #6

~Part 3~
Love me like you used to
(Complete my empty soul)
Love me like you care
(I want you back 10-fold)

You looked through a window
(I swore I'd never show)
My self-imposed wall crumbled
(Left in shambles below)

Love and intimacy in the form of graffiti
Heartfelt fantasy now made a reality.

Everyday I realize your truth.

Shoebox Poems #5

~Part 1~
Just stop it.
Stop your lies and your deceit!
Stop your shit and your greed!

No more hate; No more cries
No more screams; No more goodbyes

Quit the calling
Quit the denial (I see it!)
Quit the following
Quit the trials (I feel it!)

Be a man - Show me your true colors!
...they're fading gray with these troubles.

RESPECT ME!


~Part 2 ~
Love opened my mind with a blindfold
Making me strong - Heart and soul!

I left you alone (so dark and cold)
I left you in shambles (pieces are sold)

I was your Sunshine: your Morning Light.
You were my Darkness; my Fearful Night.

Powerful together in this great Universe
Beautiful no more, the star has burst

Move on and be whole again!
Don't search life with pain!

The hurt is too much (I'm brought to my knees)
"This too will pass" (the future is foreseen)

I have loved you more than I could fathom
Yet you have left me overcome with sadness...

Shoebox Poems #4

Date Unknown (rev.6/09)

They said I was crazy,
I said I was in love.

I pretend nothing (feeling everything)
I wanted to see him, now and forever...

They said I was blind,
I said I was in love.

I hear him softly (faintly mistaken)
I felt his heart like no one else could...

They said they're worried,
I said I was in love.

A victim of ignorance (growing pains)
Hopeful dreams that would never come true.

Thoughts From The Dali Lama

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R's: Respect for self, Respect for others and Responsibility for your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
7. When your realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Open your arms to change but don't change your values.
9. Spend some time alone everyday.
10. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
11. In disagreement with loved ones deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
12. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.
13. Be gentle with the earth.
14. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
15. Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exveeds your need for each other.
16. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
17. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandonment.
18. Remember that silence s sometimes the best answer.

Inspiration..

Ispiration comes in many forms.. whenever i feel like i've had more than i can handle i stop and reflect on the others around me.. i think about their own struggles and mine really aren't any more difficult than theirs. the only differences are the circumstances..

i've done a lot of complaining about my own problems and i thank you ladies for listening and understanding.. but now when i reflect, i feel as though i shouldn't have acted as though it were the end of the world. i'm not the only person to go through what i'm going through, and let's face it... my problems are not all that 'special'... i'm not the first, and i won't be the last.. but i've learned quite a lesson over the past 4 years.. am i scorned?? sometimes i feel like i am and i'd like to change that. i don't want to take every bad thing that has happened to me and make the next in line suffer because of someoneelse's foul doings.

it's not going to take a miracle to get over this.. i just need to build a bridge to my future to get over my fucking past..

Call the Po-Po HO!!

ARGH! Just when I think that maybe the person that I married wasn't a complete tool... he proves my point why I knew better than to trust a word that comes out of that loosers mouth!

I got my Mother's Day gift a day early! I was visited by San Diego's Finest this afternoon.. My ex called the cops for suspected child abuse.. OH yeah baby!! the police arrived to inspect the little ones and were filled in on the case and just giggled and told me there is nothing to worry about.. my kids have the same amount of bruises as any other 2 and 3 year olds they've seen, even their own..

I guess that means all the fighing is not over.. :) WEEEEE!!

sorry for the rant, but hey.. if there is anyone out there who'd listen, i know it'd be my girls.. LOVE YOU!

(this pissed me off so badly, i even turned down my little indian fuck toy!!)

My First "Pow-Wow"... OH WOW!

My first little Indian Boy.. Oh! where is one to start?? I still have a shit eating grin that even the stresses of my personal divorce drama can't wipe away...

I was with my girl Tattle for a little b-day party, for someone I don't know, and the party was winding down and we headed off to the big Tee-Pee for a little after-party fun. It was quiet and relaxing on the soft down-stuffed couch when out of the blue this extra adorable young man took a seat with his head in my lap.. I had noticed him earlier that evening lookin extra delicious but didn't really think too much of it... i was just there to have a good time..
He grabed my hands and we sat in awkward silence, and then got to know one another.. OMG he's 20 years old! (a little bit of doubt set in, but hey, what the heck, let's see what happens) a little chit chat and after a bit i get this kiss that was out of the blue and OMG soooooooo lucious and delicious.. I never thought about making out on a couch with a room full of onlookers.. OH WELL!
more idle banter back and forth and then i had to use the ladies room, he walked me there and closed the door and let me be in peace.. when i opened the door there he was waiting and took my hand and shoved me into a dark little corner where his lips felt so sweet and my hands and body did a little wandering of their own.. OMFG, what was throbbing in his pants was more than a handful and i could tell eager to get out of it's hiding place...
Still me, feeling shy, i wandered away from the corner, he followed and we moved on to another part of the house... the infamouse 'haircut bathroom'.. LMFAO! he said he was feeling adventurous and I think my own curiosity got the better of me.. Fumblling around like teenagers a bit, his hands went up my skirt and he began to work his skilled fingers soaking my black lace thong.. after a bit i couldn't take it anymore and he slid his fingers deep inside, i almost came right there.. and almost like a pro, he un hooked his belt and button of his pants and they dropped to the floor and within seconds i was holding something hot and hard in my hand and was eager to feel him inside me.
balanced on the counter of the bathroom not one second was wasted and he grabbed me and held me and he was in. OMFG! Where did this sexxy young creature come from and how did I end up in the bathroom with him!?!? Who the FUCK CARES! It felt tooooo damn good to worry about the details.. the curve was just right and he totally knows how to make a woman moan and in seconds i totally forgot where we were and how old he was..
We lost track of time and we were both sweaty from all the action, I asked if we could move to another room, something without toothpaste on the counters and soap scum build up EVERYWHERE! LOL
we made it to a quiet place where we got fully naked and fully into just FUCKING. he had me doggie style and i was loving every second..we switched around a bit and i had him fuck me while I was flat on my stomach and legs crossed the heat and friction had me cumming in no time and with in a few minutes i could tell he could no longer hold back.. his body tensed up and his breathing became shallow and i heard the sexxiest groan and then felt every HOT drop of his juices deep inside me and i wiggled a bit to get him as deep inside as possible as i came all over his fucking cock. we were both spent and as i got up my whole body was shaking.. I hadn't been fucked like that in YEARS and it is definately something to write home about, hence this blog!!!
he has me daydreaming about this sexcapade often and honestly i can't wait to get back for some more action, LOL.

I just got fucked the KUMEYAAY way. lmfao.

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ENJOY!

Hiiii Everyone! Well, hows abouts an update. si?

I've moved into my new apt.. eh hum... I mean, WE moved into OUR new apt. ;) It's smaller than our last, but better. I have a great view and so far, we're finding it very easy to cozy ourselves in for the next few months. It's gonna be a chill ass summer, Texas style.

My man just returned back from tour a lil over a week ago. He flew home a day early and suprised me roses in tow and all! sooo dreamy. He was gone almost 8 wks and I missed him so. It was good though because we both got a chance to think and see if this is something we truly wanna continue. I'm happy to say we're heading into year number 2 and things are slowly getting easier. For the first time say that I have RESPECT for the man I'm with. I think I've met my match girls...

I've been practicing a clutter free lifestyle. I got rid of all kinds of shit in my move. I sat there sometimes confused as to how I accumulated sooo much bs. Luckily, it's all gone and ya know, it's true what they say... Your mind can't be at rest when you have chaotic settings. I feel a million times better and now I can focus what real. I'm 23 now. Time to live.

Well, life moves forward and after the last few shitty years... I'm ready to just chill, relax and enjoy what life has in store for me. I guess there's a mysterious contentment that comes with accepting things. I hope that you all know how much I miss you. I think of you often and smile...

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My Personal Battle

Psoriasis is a highly visible, non contagious, long lasting skin disease affecting both men and women and appears on the skin in the form of red scales that can sometimes be very itchy.

The most common form, i.e. plaque psoriasis, appears as raised, red patches or lesions covered with a silvery white buildup of dead skin cells, called scale.

While the itchiness and pain can be unpleasant, some of the worst effects of psoriasis is emotional. Sufferers of psoriasis sometimes feel self-conscious, isolated and depressed.
Unfortunately, there isn’t a cure. But there are several effective treatments that can help keep the condition under control.
Psoriasis is not contagious but can be inherited. There are different types of the condition but the majority of all cases are plaque psoriasis.



Guttate Psoriasis
• Affects children, teenagers and young adults.
• Often appear after a bacterial infection such as strep throat.
• Red, scaly, round spots on the skin.
• Usually over the abdomen, arms, legs and scalp.
• May go away without treatment in a few weeks.

Causes Of Psoriasis
• Experts are not sure what exactly causes psoriasis.
Psoriasis of the skin and nails may look like a rash or fungus, but you can’t catch it from another person. You also can’t give it to anyone else or spread it from one part of your body to another by touch.
• Statistics show that about one-third of people who have psoriasis have one or more family members with the condition. It is therefore likely that psoriasis is inherited. However, it is believed that genetic factors alone do not determine whether you develop psoriasis.
• Although psoriasis usually appears as a skin condition, recent discoveries show that its real cause is a problem with the immune system. This is because increased numbers of white blood cells are present between the abnormal layers of skin and because psoriasis responds to drugs that suppress the immune system.

Psoriasis Treatment Options
Psoriasis and psoriatic arthritis have no cure, but many different therapies can reduce, or nearly stop their symptoms. No single treatment works for everyone, but something is likely to work in most cases.

Topical Treatments
Normally applied directly to the skin, slow down or normalize excessive cell reproduction and reduce inflammation associated with psoriasis.

Phototherapy
Involves exposing the skin to wavelengths of ultraviolet light under medical supervision. Present in natural sunlight, ultraviolet B (UVB) penetrates the skin and slows the abnormally rapid growth of skin cells associated with psoriasis.
This form of treatment can be used by adults and children, and can be effective used aloe or in combination with other treatment options.

Systemic Treatment
Psoriasis that is resistant to topical treatment and phototherapy is treated by medications that are taken internally by pill or injection. This is called systemic treatment. Patients undergoing systemic treatment are required to have regular blood and liver function tests because f the toxicity of the medication.

Alternative Therapy
Balneothrapy, or water based treatments involving natural thermal springs, hot springs, mineral water or seawater, is widely used throughout Europe and Asia. Climatotherapy is a term used to describe the combination of natural sunlight and water, such as the ocean or other bodies of water to treat psoriasis.

Preventing Psoriasis
Unfortunately, there is no way to prevent psoriasis but here are ways you can improve your symptoms or help reduce the number flare-ups:
• Keep your skin moist and lubricated.
• Avoid cold, dry climates.
• Avoid scratching and picking skin and skin injuries (cuts or scrapes).
• Avoid stress and anxiety.
• Avoid infections such as strep throat, especially in children.
• Try to avoid certain medication including beta blockers and lithium.
• Limit your alcohol intake.
• Don’t smoke.

Change of Plans

So after speaking to one of the most influential people in my career right now, and getting some much needed advice my moving plans have changed.  Instead of moving to LA right off the bat, I am going to move to San Diego.  WOW I cant believe Im actually saying that, truthfully I thought that was the last place I would move because I had my heart set on LA, but I was told that the San Diego Paul Mitchell school would be the best place for me to finish my schooling once I get out there due to the owner and the people he brings in to help teach.  So, the plan is move to San Diego for 6 months and finish school, and then go up to LA.  The other thing that has changed is my girl isnt moving out there with me anymore, I cut the bitch off lol.....  However, Sean still is!!!  Cant wait to see everyone!!!!

So for our "Tale Trip" in August maybe we could still do it in LA and all pitch in and get a Hotel or something!