Inspiration..

Ispiration comes in many forms.. whenever i feel like i've had more than i can handle i stop and reflect on the others around me.. i think about their own struggles and mine really aren't any more difficult than theirs. the only differences are the circumstances..

i've done a lot of complaining about my own problems and i thank you ladies for listening and understanding.. but now when i reflect, i feel as though i shouldn't have acted as though it were the end of the world. i'm not the only person to go through what i'm going through, and let's face it... my problems are not all that 'special'... i'm not the first, and i won't be the last.. but i've learned quite a lesson over the past 4 years.. am i scorned?? sometimes i feel like i am and i'd like to change that. i don't want to take every bad thing that has happened to me and make the next in line suffer because of someoneelse's foul doings.

it's not going to take a miracle to get over this.. i just need to build a bridge to my future to get over my fucking past..

Call the Po-Po HO!!

ARGH! Just when I think that maybe the person that I married wasn't a complete tool... he proves my point why I knew better than to trust a word that comes out of that loosers mouth!

I got my Mother's Day gift a day early! I was visited by San Diego's Finest this afternoon.. My ex called the cops for suspected child abuse.. OH yeah baby!! the police arrived to inspect the little ones and were filled in on the case and just giggled and told me there is nothing to worry about.. my kids have the same amount of bruises as any other 2 and 3 year olds they've seen, even their own..

I guess that means all the fighing is not over.. :) WEEEEE!!

sorry for the rant, but hey.. if there is anyone out there who'd listen, i know it'd be my girls.. LOVE YOU!

(this pissed me off so badly, i even turned down my little indian fuck toy!!)